[ honestly, the undercity is full of people like jinx! they're full of people like jinx and vi and claggor and mylo, so - he's right. they both know that there wasn't any fairness here. it's just the way things were.
she shakes her head. ]
Sort of. We accidentally blew up a building Topside, and they wanted heads for it. I tried to take responsibility for it, but Vander wouldn't let me, and it just... went south, really fast.
Silco had been after Vander for ages anyway. It was a good opportunity.
[That makes sense, he thinks. It's not an easy choice to make. And there's no Lu Bixing here, no one to provide spaceships and inter-universe travel. Childe has no idea how to get in touch with him, either, so there's no point in even bringing it up.
He sighs softly.]
Something like this... it's just about picking the regrets you can live with, I think. But if you ask me... it's not worth being miserable just because you feel like you have to shoulder a burden.
[Whatever she leaves behind--he can't promise that won't eat away at her for the rest of her life. That would be a ridiculous thing to say, especially when he only has the barest grasp of her situation. But he remembers going home to a name that no longer suited him, trying and failing to find happiness in a place he no longer belonged. He's watched Alex, and now Jonas, struggle under the weight of responsibilities they clearly can't handle, all because they don't see a way out and they're too stubborn to listen to his advice.
Childe chose to pursue his own happiness, so--it's what he'll advise for her, too.]
later, she'll come to this decision too. later, she'll have more people rattling her around and telling her that she can live for herself for once, instead of being a side character in someone else's story. but this is the foundation for it. what can you live with? can you be happy with this?
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she shakes her head. ]
Sort of. We accidentally blew up a building Topside, and they wanted heads for it. I tried to take responsibility for it, but Vander wouldn't let me, and it just... went south, really fast.
Silco had been after Vander for ages anyway. It was a good opportunity.
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[Personal in a way, but... not, at the same time. In a way, that's almost worse, he thinks, but he doesn't say that.]
Is he still after you now?
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[ rubs at her face absently. ]
Different set of problems at this point.
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It's always like that, huh. [...] You were planning on not going back, right?
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[ she rubs at her wrist. ]
I don't know. I don't want to. [ but. she's struggling with the responsibility of it. ]
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He sighs softly.]
Something like this... it's just about picking the regrets you can live with, I think. But if you ask me... it's not worth being miserable just because you feel like you have to shoulder a burden.
[Whatever she leaves behind--he can't promise that won't eat away at her for the rest of her life. That would be a ridiculous thing to say, especially when he only has the barest grasp of her situation. But he remembers going home to a name that no longer suited him, trying and failing to find happiness in a place he no longer belonged. He's watched Alex, and now Jonas, struggle under the weight of responsibilities they clearly can't handle, all because they don't see a way out and they're too stubborn to listen to his advice.
Childe chose to pursue his own happiness, so--it's what he'll advise for her, too.]
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later, she'll come to this decision too. later, she'll have more people rattling her around and telling her that she can live for herself for once, instead of being a side character in someone else's story. but this is the foundation for it. what can you live with? can you be happy with this?
she rubs at her face. ]
... Yeah. Thanks. [ genuinely. ] That... helps.
[ to get different perspectives. ]