[ she won't shy away from that. she has been putting up walls. she has been keeping herself withdrawn. she isn't untouchable, and she knows it, but it doesn't mean she can't try. ]
It's difficult to have visitors when things aren't settled yet.
Sure, but I know you can do what you said you were going to do.
[ confidence, there. she believes in roxana's ability to take things back for herself. she believes that when roxana goes back, she'll ruin her father's life and he won't be able to do anything about it. that comes through in her emotions - a very firm, centered belief in roxana. ]
So after that. When things are settled, what about then?
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[ she does not know if that is what it wants. ]
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[ sinks into the couch. ]
As long as we beat it into paste, figuratively or literally. I want to go -- I want out of here.
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It's only a matter of finding the best way to do it. Or even knowing how it wants to compete.
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[ a sigh, and then: ]
... Hey, if this all goes right. If we get to do whatever we want? Are you just gonna vanish and never talk to any of us again?
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Why do you think that's what will happen?
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[ glances at her. ]
If I'm wrong, I'm happy.
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[ it's part of what keeps her safe. ]
I don't see a reason not to answer any messages I receive, if we can still connect that way after.
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[ a little half smile. ]
But you don't want visitors?
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[ she won't shy away from that. she has been putting up walls. she has been keeping herself withdrawn. she isn't untouchable, and she knows it, but it doesn't mean she can't try. ]
It's difficult to have visitors when things aren't settled yet.
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[ confidence, there. she believes in roxana's ability to take things back for herself. she believes that when roxana goes back, she'll ruin her father's life and he won't be able to do anything about it. that comes through in her emotions - a very firm, centered belief in roxana. ]
So after that. When things are settled, what about then?
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I don't know how long it'll take, but I don't think it'll be a good idea.
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Yeah? Why not?
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[ a beat. ]
Nothing really left for me at home. and - they need me.
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I don't know what else to do for her that I haven't done. [ this has taken a really long time to get to this point. ]