doublefists | ★ ROXANA

[ she looks at the colors, with a hum. ]

Really? Orange? Kind of feel like it clashes with the whole. [ gestures to her hair. ] But I'll take your word for it.

Whatever it is, I'm sure it's super demeaning and rude.

How you carry yourself.

[ she raises her eyebrows slightly. ]

That says more about your opinion of yourself than anything else.

Does it?

[ takes a swig from her drink. ]

I just think this place isn't very nice.

Can't it be both?

[ a beat, and then a wry grin. ]

This is a familiar conversation.

[ teasing, a little. ]

If it's familiar, don't you think there's a reason for that?

[ tone light. she wanders to the next frame to look at, which shows inside bones. ]

[ makes a face!! ]

It just means you're hitting a brick wall with a popsicle stick, sunshine.

[ looks at the Inside Bones... this place is so weird. ]

I won't push it... but someone else will try to take a hammer to your wall, Vi.

[ she's not here to force vi. she's only pointing it out. ]

They won't.

[ a lopsided smile. ]

But you're cute for being concerned.

That confidence will be your downfall.

[ she steps to the next frames, which doesn't show her anything different because she's not wearing anything with pockets today. ]

You are already attached to a few people.

[ watching her move from frame to frame, hands in her pockets. ]

Sure. You're one of them. [ she rolls her shoulders. ] And you're the only one who ever points out something might be wrong.

It's fine. I'll make it.

[ that's honestly a surprise to roxana that she's the only one who points anything out. that makes her look over at vi for a second. ]

You'll make it. That much I won't doubt.

[ but that she'll be fine? roxana doesn't know about that. ]

[ she's just very blunt, which vi likes, honestly? ]

Thanks for the vote of confidence. [ winks at her. ] Especially when the odds are stacked! We're already dead, technically we didn't make shit.

[ her smile is small, faint with amusement. ]

If you were Scaramouche, you'd likely be thinking the opposite. From the sounds of it, he wants to be over.

I'm no optimist by any stretch of the word, but everyone is angry and spiteful enough that I think it'll pull us through.

Yeah, sure, but Scaramouche was already dead before he got here. If he wants it so bad, he should've gotten caught.

[ makes a face. anyway. ]

I want to be over there so bad, I don't - get it. I don't get why someone would want this.

[ ... at least there's that. at least she doesn't want to die? ]

I'll write to him that you said he should try harder.

[ it's said half in jest.

at least there is that. the will to live is important. or at least the desire not to die. ]

You'll have to ask him. Most of the people from Hell have this kind of opinion, or so I've heard. Would you accept it if someone killed to bring you back to that side?

[ that first bit makes her laugh a bit. she doesn't protest! get good, scara.

as for the rest, she just... sighs, and rubs at the back of her neck. ]

... I don't know. I - I think I'd probably hate it. [ though she can't really shake the quiet little thought that it'd be nice to have someone devote that much effort to her, in a fucked up way. ]

It doesn't matter because they won't. [ she is so very, very sure of this. ]

Even if the reality is it won't happen, that doesn't negate consideration. Wanting something doesn't mean you have to expect it.

[ even if you also hate wanting it, even if you think it's fucked up. ]

Edited (no double icon) 2025-07-03 05:23 (UTC)

[ she glances back at her mirror, at the orange soul, at the red crawling in. ]

Like I said, I wouldn't trade me for someone else. [ a shrug. ] But who wouldn't get a little thrill at someone caring that much.

I didn't expect a different answer from you, the first part. The truly self-sacrificial types wouldn't, but I find their opinions invalid most of the time.

[ on that topic, at least. ]

But it is hard not to be flattered, in some way. Even if the likelihood is low.

[ snorts. ]

... Yeah. Someone picking you over anything else feels good. [ this has never happened to her in her entire life ]

Opinions invalid, huh. Not a fan of the self-sacrificing?

It's annoying. I don't think I've witnessed an instance where it hasn't been.

[ grinning... ]

I don't disagree with you. [ she will simply ignore the fact that she has probably been that way in the past ]

[ as long as roxana doesn't see it, roxana doesn't have to know. ]

People can make up their own minds about whether they want someone dead or alive.

They sure do in this place.

You ever think the possessed people go after the ones they do for a reason?

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