★ ROXANA

[doublefists]

from hit canon roxana

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[doublefists]

[ the thing is she refuses to let any of her excuses make her look even remotely innocent. ]

Old enough that I should've known better. [ she rubs at her wrists. ] Whether I meant to or not, I still did. So she's my responsibility.

[disingenuous]

You are set in this, but was there only you for her? Was there no one else to support you?

[ is the man in that flash of a memory dead? ]

[doublefists]

[ mmmmmmm she looks like she doesn't want to answer this, but she doesn't see any point in hiding it. ]

Nobody else was left. She killed them. [ ... ] On accident. It was an accident.

[ but. still. ]

[disingenuous]

[ an accident doesn't take away the result, but it does paint it a different shade. ]

It's an unfortunate series of events that led her to how she is now. It changed things terribly for the both of you. [ ... ] It sounded like she wanted you to put her to rest.

[doublefists]

[ she shoves her hands in her pockets. ]

That's - that's what I went down there to do. [ her voice is lower, rougher here. ] She wasn't Powder anymore, so I thought...

[ ... ]

I don't know what to do about her anymore. About any of it.

[disingenuous]

It looks like talking isn't much of an option anymore, is it?

[ ... ]

How much does it matter if there isn't much of the sister you once knew? Are you still the same Vi that she used to know?

[doublefists]

[ hhhh. ]

No. [ to the last question, as she stares at the ground.

she rubs at her face. ]

I already - went that far, I did the enforcer thing to get to her, and I really - I really was going to stop her, but I couldn't, because it doesn't really matter what's wrong or what's right. If she's a problem, she has to be mine, but I can't just... get rid of her.

[ she just can't bring herself to do it. she tried to convince herself there wasn't anything left so it would be easier, but it didn't work. ]

[disingenuous]

You love her too much, and your love means you can't let go.

[ there's a history that runs too deep. ]

I don't think it's wrong if you want to keep a hold of her. Even if causes problems for everyone else... I don't think it's wrong for you to want it.

[ is it good? is it healthy? will it help either of them? maybe not. probably not. it's uncertain, but it's not wrong to want. ]

[doublefists]

[ silence, for a bit. then: ]

She's my sister. [ finally. ] I guess both of us sort of know what it's like to not want to let go of them.

[ or that's what she thinks, after that memory she saw. ]

[disingenuous]

Wanting only accounts for so much, sometimes.

[ it's true she's never wanted to let her brother go, but roxana would rather be the one to let go violently than to have someone else rip someone out of her hands. ]